Venting out whatever's left...

I can't believe it.
I just can't.

Just when I thought that we were the bestest friends in the world. I learn that she's out flirting with guys and she doesnt tell me. What the fuck? Why would she not tell me. I thought wrong again!! I'm so fucking stupid. I'm tired of hearing her problems. But I don't want her to stop telling me, and I don't want to stop helping her. But what she's doing to herself is just stupid. Doesn't she know that qowhuqp likes her?! GAH. And now she's out there flirting with guys like akdrljs. What the fuck? She's too young for love. She.. GAH. I feel like such a stupid friend. What if she gets raped or something?! I'm fucking worried about her.

Dammit. What if she gives in? I hate this. It's like she just pretends to listen. Like she just pretends to be my friend and not really care. What happened to you? Is it that you're tired of hearing me? Is is cuz you're tired of my stupid advice? Why don't you just tell me. Just tell me so that I don't have to waste my time & effort. Dammit. I don't even see it as effort cuz you guys are too important to me.. Scratch that. Let me rephrase. Just tell me so that I'd stop.

I don't want to lose you.
I don't want to lose anyone.
I don't want to anymore. Not again.

Hear me out. You're like a sister to me. You're very important to me. And I don't want you to ruin your life. And I surely will kill and/or hurt anyone who does ruin you. I promise. But please, take fuckin care of yourself. I can't do all the work. If I could, I would. For you and every single one of my friends. Please, take care of yourself. If anything happened to you, I'd be crushed.

Please do me a great big favor, take care of yourself, I promise to pay you back.

I'm sorry. I'm just pissed and angry. He doesn't deserve you, and I know I have no business in that. But I just want you to know that you're better off with someone who WILL care about you than make you love him and then leave you for another. Please, he's not what he seems. I know things about him. And those things arent good. Please, take care of yourself. Use your head, you're smart.

You know that.